james joyce in the office

i want to be knitting what i wouldn't give to have my hands wrapped around the cool soft silk and my warm wooden 10 1/2 needles oh so comforting so familiar so creative makes me feel like the most creative person alive creativity comes in spurts during boring sermons and field trips sometimes in my office i have to sketch down hands and stitches on post-its and newspapers i forgot my notebook today, but at least i have my iPod playing me kings of convenience on the reels of this record that i found i love this song so perfect for my job and my life right now. i finally downed that awful cappuccino so bitter and the sugar at the bottom made my mouth sour and my mind want to force reboot oh how i hate mondays. there's only one thing on my mind searching boxes underneath the counter on a chance that on a tape i'd find a song for someone for me somewhere to long for. paperwork is the devil at least later i get to play with crepe paper and laugh with people in the ciao hall, or at least get out of my office into some place with windows how i hate this closed off office can't wait to be somewhere else in the cold with the sun shining on my face warming my legs through my tights with the warm tones of music in my ears handwarmers soft against my fingers my mind already in the cherry trees of DC smelling cleaner air arranging my new room will i be able to take all my books with me no i won't but i'll miss them, my friends my companions missy caitlin - what will i do without them? they're better than almost any book tolkien exlcuded of course excuse me i would never presume - but they're so kind so honest so open i don't have to lie to them even 'white' lies things have been getting so comfortable lately with them i love talking with them so encouraging and i learn and anticipate life.

i like blogging like this i feel yes feel you incredulous sillies as if maybe my thoughts are easier to organize if they're not do i really write like gertrude stein someone once told me i did. i wish i had her wit i would soon as call her mother a wit oh i must watch that again i can't wait to introduce DC to my favorite movies it's like making memories how will the room be set up will it be comfortable or strange - i'll finally have a place for my favorite glider where i can sit and knit and pray and laugh i can't wait.